Hi Wayne ,
Welcome to the blog. Tell us a little about yourself.
I was born in Mt. Kisco, NY, grew up in
Dutchess Co., and now live in Greene Co., NY. I have been writing
since about age 13, but I have never had anything published. I
played soccer for 28 years, I enjoy watching sports, I have owned my
own business twice in the past, and I enjoy a simple life. I have
one brother, one sister, and two wonderful nieces.
I am using Pubslush as a way to generate support for my book, it is a crowdfunding site. The link to my book is http://www.pubslush.com/
This
is the first book I have ever written and it is not published yet. I
am hoping to raise enough support through Pubslush to be able to fund
the publishing, editing, and cover art fees. I guess right now you
could say it is in it's rough first stages. Also, I have been trying to
find beta readers and reviewers that would like to read the book and
provide me with honest feedback and criticism. The book is a
non-fiction romance, possible chick-lit also.
Find Wayne online;
She
was named after the Goddess Cerridwen, the Goddess of
rebirth,
transformation, and inspiration. She
was all of those things to me. Everything I had ever dreamed of
finding in a woman, she was perfect for me in every way. Every way
except one.
Cerridwen and I
met online. I never had much luck with dating sites, but Cerridwen
really had everything I was looking for. She was kind, caring, she
had her own home and her own business, she was smart, and funny, and
she was very sexy. I would've taken her out to dinner the first week
we met, but we couldn't decide on a good place to meet between New
York and Australia.
Yes, that was the
one draw back, she lived in Australia. I know a lot of people would
be skeptical, believe me I heard it all from my family and friends,
but there was just something about her, something I could not let go
of. I desperately looked forward to each morning when I could go
online and learn more about the woman I wanted to spend the rest of
my life with.
Can two people
meet online, fall in love, and plan the rest of their lives together
without ever having met in person? Is it possible? What about all
the obstacles there were to overcome? Could it be done?
Read an excerpt
It was early
October 2007 in upstate New York. The
weather was cold, my heart was dark, and I was lonely. The last few years for me had been very
depressing and dreary. I had been
through a couple bad relationships, my business was failing, and I was in debt
up to my eyeballs.
Winter would
soon be approaching and business had begun to slow down for the year. The thoughts of having to struggle through
another winter and thinking about all the money I already owed really started
to get me down. I was becoming more and
more depressed and increasingly less motivated to do anything about it. With everything in my life going so poorly I
just needed to find a way out. I needed
a fresh start.
I needed a
change in my life, I needed something, I couldn’t go on like this much
longer. One day I decided to try an
online dating service, it is the 21st century and although I never
had much luck with them before I figured I would give it another shot. I knew some friends that did have some luck
with them so I figured why not.
* * * * * *
When I first set out on my search
I was hopeful, but that was fading fast.
It was now late
November and I figured that I wouldn’t find anyone. Over the next couple of weeks I got a few
hundred more profiles, but nothing, until one day.
The woman’s profile did not have
a picture, but she seemed to have all of the qualities I was
looking for. I sent her an email. She mailed me back within a couple of days
and we started to
correspond. We went
through all of the typical questions that eHarmony sets up for you and I
remember that every question she answered, she answered in
just the right way. I found myself
growing increasingly more interested in her.
Her name was
Cerridwen, 30 years old, very interesting, a very nice person, and we enjoyed a
lot of the same things, movies, music, camping, the list goes on. The one draw back was that she lived in
Australia.
* * * * * *
An email from Cerridwen to me dated
3/12/08, subject line: Hi:
Hi
baby,
I have a little time before work this
morning so I thought I would write you this e-mail. I feel that maybe I should try and explain my
feelings and thoughts about you and our relationship now that I am not as
tongue tied and I am able to formulate sentences a little better. You have such
an effect over me that when it comes to trying to define how I feel and think
about you my senses seem to melt and abandon me. Never in my life have I ever known anyone
like you, you have such a way about you.
I
look at you and I am amazed by the depth and strength of the love and joy I
feel toward you, which is why I find myself speechless at times when we are
talking. It is also why at times I am so
overwhelmed and a little scared of where this will all lead. After my husband passed away I truly believed
that I would never love anyone again.
Then I met you and I found myself suddenly swept away with such a strong
desire and need to be with, and to build a life with, someone again. But with you it is so different and so much
more intense then what I have ever felt before.
Which is why I guess I am a little scared, everything I think and feel
toward you is something I have never experienced before and I never want to
loose that. You are like dream to me and
I guess I’m scared that I will wake and you will be gone. Well baby I shall leave it there. I don’t know how well I have explained all
this to you, but I hope well enough for you to understand what the meaning is
behind my being overwhelmed and a little fearful.
Forever
Yours,
Cerridwen xoxo
* * * * * *
I didn’t say
much in the email, but I did make a short video for her using my web-cam. In the video I said hello, told her I was
missing her, and was looking forward to talking to her soon. I so wanted to tell her ‘I love you’, but I
didn’t. I began to think that I would
tell her the first time I met her.
I could picture
it now. I would get off the plane, a bit
tired from the long flight, but so alive and excited to see her. I knew I wouldn’t be able to contain myself for
very long. We would see each other
across the terminal and run towards each other.
Our eyes would meet, quickly followed by our lips and a warm embrace. We daydreamed about this a lot together, but
the one part I never told her was that I planned to tell her I love her the
first time we would meet.
Thanks Elodie, I really appreciate it! It looks great! Have a happy Monday!
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